Too Many Red Flags, But I am Stronger Now

Trigger Warning Animal Abuse, Domestic Abuse, Domestic Violence, Child Abuse × Dismiss alert The man I met in college was supposed to be the man of my future happiness but I was wrong. In the first that we were dating, he was an amazing man. He cared deeply for everything I needed and was very …

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I Came to Earth for the Experiences

I was born in 1948, a front edge baby boomer, a product of location, times, religion, and multi-level abuse.  I’m 2nd oldest of 7with oldest child responsibilities due to the actual oldest having handicaps.  No dating, no friends, working away from home since age 11, not allowed to own any of my pay.  My goals …

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I remember every moment that made me fall in love with the man who one day would destroy my ease to love freely.

I met the man of my dreams when I was 20 years old, working at Ameristar as a barista. He was the epitome of tall, dark(tan) and handsome. It was love at first sight. He worked there too, at the steak house, as a server. I was a young girl, barely old enough to know …

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He had another girlfriend while we were together for five years.

When I met him he told me he was often busy. So he essentially put us on a schedule. I was allowed to see him on Mondays Wednesdays and Fridays. I was never allowed around his family. Anytime I saw him on the weekend I was only allowed a short amount of time with him. …

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After 25 years of a horrible marriage, I love myself now.

First I was married for 25 yrs. Most of it was unhappy. The relationship started great…then it was up and down forever. We started out living together 6 months into the relationship we were pregnant. I loved him but wasn’t sure if he was the “one”.  I wanted the baby, though. So many things pointed …

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An Irish Goodbye

Trigger Warning: self harm, drug use, heavy alcohol consumption, and suicide attempt is described in this piece. Aside: the relationships described were nonmonogamous in nature, meaning that the people therein agreed that the people they loved were free to explore love with more than one person. Ideally… She had blue eyes, dark brown hair, and …

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Best Friends to Marriage to Divorce

When I was 15 years old, I met my future ex-husband. We became friends in high school and for over 5 years, he always playfully accused me of friend-zoning him. Eventually, I realized that I did have feelings for my best friend and we started to date. After a couple months, he decided that he …

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We were never really head over heels, just practical

We were high school sweethearts and he was my first serious relationship. We were friends initially and he kept asking me out until I finally agreed. We hardly ever fought. He was a great guy, very intelligent. After about 9 years we got married because it seemed to make sense financially. We were never really …

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