Too Many Red Flags, But I am Stronger Now

Trigger Warning Animal Abuse, Domestic Abuse, Domestic Violence, Child Abuse × Dismiss alert The man I met in college was supposed to be the man of my future happiness but I was wrong. In the first that we were dating, he was an amazing man. He cared deeply for everything I needed and was very …

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I Came to Earth for the Experiences

I was born in 1948, a front edge baby boomer, a product of location, times, religion, and multi-level abuse.  I’m 2nd oldest of 7 with oldest child responsibilities due to the actual oldest having handicaps.  I wasn’t allowed to date, no friends, worked away from home since age 11, not allowed to own any of …

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I remember every moment that made me fall in love with the man who one day would destroy my ease to love freely.

I met the man of my dreams when I was 20 years old, working at a casino as a barista. He was the epitome of tall, dark(tan) and handsome. It was love at first sight. He worked there too, at the steak house, as a server. I was a young girl, barely old enough to …

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He had another girlfriend while we were together for five years.

When I met him he told me he was often busy. So he essentially put us on a schedule. I was allowed to see him on Mondays Wednesdays and Fridays. I was never allowed around his family. Anytime I saw him on the weekend I was only allowed a short amount of time with him. …

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Married at 18 and Divorced by 21

So I married my high school sweetheart. We met at 14 and dated all through high school. He joined the navy. We got married at 18 when he was at home on a break from boot camp/ school before he was stationed at Coronado Island in San Diego. He deployed while we were married for …

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After 25 years of a horrible marriage, I love myself now.

First I was married for 25 yrs. Most of it was unhappy. The relationship started great…then it was up and down forever. We started out living together 6 months into the relationship we were pregnant. I loved him but wasn’t sure if he was the “one”.  I wanted the baby, though. So many things pointed …

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An Irish Goodbye

Trigger Warning: self harm, drug use, heavy alcohol consumption, and suicide attempt is described in this piece. × Dismiss alert Aside: the relationships described were nonmonogamous in nature, meaning that the people therein agreed that the people they loved were free to explore love with more than one person. Ideally… She had blue eyes, dark …

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My high school sweetheart dropped out of my life

So I met Derek when I was 17 and he was 16. He went to a different school but swam for my high school. I was a manager for the men’s team and we started dating right after the season ended. We dated all the way through college. He dropped out of college for me …

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Best Friends to Marriage to Divorce

When I was 15 years old, I met my future ex-husband. We became friends in high school and for over 5 years, he always playfully accused me of friend-zoning him. Eventually, I realized that I did have feelings for my best friend and we started to date. After a couple months, he decided that he …

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